Inadvertently, i left a rear door open in my car all night; The Land pointed it out to me as we exited the house this morning. At first, I worried that my battery probably wore down, but was assured when it turned over fine.
When we arrived to ExA's house, i turned around to see The Land leave and saw what i thought was one of their stuffed animal birds on the floor. i then realized it was a dead robin that must have flown in the open door and broken it's neck trying to get out.
A sign?
Noire wanted to get together tonight, and i asked if it was okay that we got together tomorrow night. This set forth a chain reaction of hurt feelings that culminated it our break up tonight.
As she spoke about her sadness in the days since my first attempt to break up, i realized that she was waiting for me to change my mind about not wanting to get married again, not wanting more children, and i could not let more months pass knowing that it would not change.
As always, i am sorry that i hurt her, as i do not want her to be in pain. This annoys her, because she wants me to be in pain, and while i am sad to not have her as a friend, i know that it is the right thing.
It is a dead robin.
