Monday, November 20, 2006

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i have seen your happiness, when you are singing, when you are onstage. i love seeing you perform, it's such a part of you, of your past, of your future.

Why am i slightly sick?

Monday, November 13, 2006

No Good Deed Goes Unpunished

There was a report on Marketplace about Madonna and other celebrities drawing attention to Malawi, a small African nation. They visit, adopt children, generally drawing the media with them. Anyway, the question was raised about whether or not their good deeds are overshadowed by the promotion.

I recalled one of my favorite arguments in a college philosophy class where we discussed Mother Theresa: she worked tirelessly with the poor, but as part of the Catholic doctrine it is work such as hers that gains one access to Heaven. The discussion provoked the class to argue the worth of good deeds if ultimately the good deeds make a person feel better, rewards them, etc. "Friends" dealt with the topic in an episode, to VERY comedic results.

I realized that regardless of the person's intent, any good work that is done benefits humankind. The fact that the charity fails on a personal, ethical perspective is true, but should not detract form the work itself.

So, while they my shamelessly promote themselves, Madonna, Ewen McGregor, Angelina Jolie at least do good by drawing attention to a situation that would otherwise be noticed by only a select few.

Saturday, November 04, 2006

Food Addictions and Porn

Sometimes i get disturbed by how much i am controlled by food. It gets to the point where if i have to transport food- ANY food- i need to put it way back in my car so i will not eat it on the way to it's destination. i once bought a half dozen Krispy Kremes to bring to work but aborted it after i ate 4 of them. My mind said, "There's only 2 left... you may as well finish them." So i did. i used to not be a sugar fiend, but as i have become older i find that i eat it everyday: soda, candy, whatever.

i feel like a failure, as every time i overeat or eat poorly i tell myself that tomorrow is a new day and i will change it. Then i go right back to the same old habits.

It's like porn: over indulgence in something that really should be consumed in small portions. Ever watch a porn movie? Sure, we all like...LOVE...sex, but scene after scene of it coupled with bad acting is too much. i can't make it through a whole film, although every fiber of my being wants to see how the plot resolves.