For two years i have attempted to define myself in other ways: friend, volunteer, amateur musician, amateur song writer, and found them to be sand castles. If anything makes me, it is The Land & The Sea.
When The Land and The Sea leave, i lose my definition. i dread my house, i dread its silence, i wilt at seeing their toys on the floor, lifeless of their animation and voices.
Could this mistake have been so large that it is not recoverable? Will i ever not have to do deep breathing before i pick up your calls, or brace at the sight of you?
