why i hate america

i heard a soundbite today about Ford unveiling a car that will parallel park itself.

We are giving them billions of dollars because they refuse to build cars that use alternative fuels, are more efficient, and the best that they can come up with is a cheap gimmick that will impress those who become entranced by shiny objects.

Man, are we fucked.

kites today

So the sex has turned into something more; exactly what, i am unsure. i know that it is more than the physical, more than friendship, perhaps a level of love that one enters after discovering so much about another.

i will not try and match yours with mine. And, you have to know, as does everyone, that ExA will always have residence within me, a space that may shrink in size but always burn.

i am excited to know you more.

the world's smallest violins in my hands

There are many,many things that anger me about this whole situation, but none as much as this:

You, walking up to me as we meet to drop off the girls, handing me a bag full of Christmas ornaments, and saying, "I want you to know this is very hard for me."

Once again, I am supposed to feel bad for you. But... when i try and kill myself, i'm not "thinking about others."

Your sadness about our divorce is overwhelming, i am very sad for you, now leave me the fuck alone to figure out how to go to bed without crying and wake up without a plan to fake how much i enjoy life.