i am so far removed from myself i cannot tell when and if i am in love when it presents itself.
Seraph is making herself more clear, going out of her way to spend time with me. It is with her that i feel most comfortable, somehow beautiful. Her kisses and touches are sincere, and yet there is something in the way.
Noire is in the way- she is sweet, intelligent and loves to fuck, but i need something behind all of it.
i still think about Cath, what may have happened had she not been married. We spoke again briefly- i was seeking penance, and she wouldn't grant it. She assured me that someone who changed their mind so quickly about his love must have been insincere from the beginning.
Was i? Am i?
i have found that KT is pregnant- i would comment further, but she reads this blog regularly and therefore i cannot write honestly.
