i spent time last night with a friend i hadn't seen in over ten years. He has been divorced for five years and his insights were timely. When i left him, i felt as if a weight had been lifted slightly off my shoulders, like i was being assisted in carrying this useless boulder of love/pain/sadness.

i wish i kept in better touch with people. It's amazing what you gain from others, what is offered you, from past friends and new friends.

And there are past friends who just exist, who you'd love to share with but because it never worked in the past, it will never work now.