can i play the phoenix¿

k****, i know that i am being unfair to you. Changing my mind, then changing it back. i would love to be able to say that i can get past how our relationship started, but i am not sure. i need time, that's all, time to walk through my past and find out where i went wrong eleven years ago,
why i fell in love with someone who could never love me back, why i never trusted her or myself, why we thought it a good idea to vow that love to one another, why we ever took it past two dates.

Believe me, i do not mean to be hurtful you, but i always knew that this was not going to be a happy experience. Not without considerable pain.