Anger is an energy

i guess hating you is better therapy than i could have imagined. What used to be a belief that you did not understand me i now understand is willful disregard. It has always been about you, hasn't it?

Well, no more. i do not need you to make me happy, i do not need you as a friend, i do not need you at all. i wish we didn't have children connecting us, as i would love to never see you again.

Still, we are bound through them, their schooling, graduations, weddings, etc. so i will make do. People tell me i will soften and become friends with you again, and while anger can stay alive for only so long i can easily inspire it again when i think about how little you care for the time you spend with people. Or at least the time with me.

And it is only because i am still filled with so much love for you that i need to replace every molecule with anger.

i find your philosophies on love interesting- probably the most you ever shared in our 11 years together, and i had to read it on MySpace. And you're wrong about people using love to change; love changes all of us, for good and bad.