MCA is one of my closest friends, although i see him only once a year, if that, when he travels north from Asheville. We arrange to hike and converse, two activities that have served as the foundation of our friendship the last 19 years.
On this particular hike, at the end of June, he was asking about my relationship with Noire. i confessed that i had been struggling lately, as i am not sure that monogamy is natural for humans- or, at least this human. Later on, he said that many years ago, as we walked a beach and i complained about my marriage, that he wished he had been more forthright at that time, so he was going to be now: was i truly struggling with monogamy, or am i looking for a means to end my relationship with Noire?
It frightens me how well he knows something before i do- while i cannot say that it is that purposeful, there was something oddly clarifying for me.
It is true that i have been fairly unengaged for the past 7 months, something i owe to the time of year, and whenever she mentions marriage, i want to run, as i just don't believe in that "forever ever after" shit anymore.
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