If there any advantages to having to move because of divorce (and believe me, there are no real advantages) it's getting rid of the crap you accumulate throughout life.
i have lugged around notebooks from junior high and high school for almost 30 years. This past week i sat down and poured over them, and found something surprising: they weren't worth lugging around for two years let alone 30.
All of my "poetry" is so banal and typically teenage angst ridden i cringe having to read it. Too many references to masks, being non-conformist, hating jocks... if any of those themes would make a good poem, it might make ONE good poem. They do not make 200 hundred good poems, as i thought they would when i knew everything.
Some were saved... for every 50 that were thrown away, i kept one because it may have potential, or because it said something about my view of the world at that time. i guess at one time i thought all would be collected in my complete works, and if i were a published writer would pay anything to keep those under wraps.
Sorry to all the girls i had crushes on and who anonymously received my "poems" at that time. i wrote those girls off as not understanding me. i now know they understood good poetry versus really bad poetry.
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