Wednesday, April 09, 2008

a good idea?

Two weeks in and it feels like the time is allowing us space to evaluate our marriage. Sure, much of it is the same... i am here so much with the girls that i fool myself that i have gone back in time and not made the mistake that lead us here.

What i did is not a symptom. Regardless of any issues that may have existed, it does not justify my selfishness. Still, i cannot escape certain truths, such as the completeness of being wanted sexually and emotionally by another woman.

Everyone tells me you love me, that you're committed to me, and while i know that intellectually, i am not sure i know it emotionally.

i am not sure that your committed to anything having to do with me.

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