Sunday, October 22, 2006

Sunday AM epiphany

Out of nowhere, it comes. Triggered by the most obscure moment: where the sun hangs in the sky, how clear the night is, music that plays as though it were speaking or a conversation with a beautiful person.

Defenseless, i succumb. i have had this happen before, and i know it is telling me something.

So, as I sat this morning watching "VH-1 Classic", a channel i love, but hate to admit it, a video of Peter Gabriel's "In your Eyes" came on. i am a BIG Gabriel fan, so i've heard this song at least a hundred times. But somehow, the way the music started, then the first words are sung, the players and dancers moving rhythmically (it's a live video), i felt it come, the sadness, the tears, just welled up from somewhere inside and i released it, thankful my daughters were playing in another room. As i continued watching, i realized that the sadness was happiness, happiness for my life, my family, especially my fantastically lovely wife.

i wish i knew how to invoke these moments, as i need them more often than they decide to visit.

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