i don't know exactly when i fell in love with Noire. i had told her months before that i loved her, but only came to believe it last August. Or maybe September.
The odd thing is that it is a different love. The love i had with ExA was the last of that breed, starting with Esme, passing off to Daisy and ending up with her. When i thought about it, i realized i could love Noire and it didn't need to be what i had known. What i had known had failed me, and when it came to reinventing normal, there was Noire.
While the same obstacles loom (her wanting kids and marriage), there is no immediacy to their presence; she will go her way when she needs to, i will still have a life to live, one that revolves around The Land and The Sea, with the cold silent satellites of what could have been sharing the sky.
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