day three

The boulder was rolled away from the opening, and the body was gone.....i guess it's time to discuss Noire and i.

Since re-connecting last November, it's as if those three months we were apart allowed me to let go of whatever was keeping me from appreciating her, and while i know she and i will not be together for a long time i have much more appreciation for her now.

The hindrances of who she wasn't is no longer as blaring, and instead i enjoy who she is, what we are together. It is an interesting approach for me, as i have always been the kind of person who is all or nothing. What i feel for her is fine, for right now.

Worry, at times, appears in my thoughts: what if someone else comes along? Do i end it? Part of me feels I will, but still another part of me is not so sure. It is important for me to know that i am not somebody who hurts others. i now know that regardless of how unsatisfying my marriage was, having an affair was not justified. i am devoted to Noire, and will be, as there are few true gifts we can give those who love us, and complete fidelity is one of them.