i have not written about Noire much, although we've been seeing each other seriously for over a month. i hadn't put too much thought into it as i thought our hook up would serve as an end as well as a beginning. Now that it has become more, i am not sure i want to put much into it because of fears that it will travel the same path: sexual knowledge, friendship, romance, and then hit a wall. Then apathy.
While i do not feel as though i am in love with her, at times i feel i may be able to. That in itself is a moot point because she is 31 years old and wants to be married and have a family and i am all set with those.
Our discussions are engaging, mostly about film, a common love, but not like those i have with Seraph; our sex is incredible, even more so than with KT, but that is just the universe continuing to mock me for wanting out of my marriage for something as trivial as sex.
She stays over frequently, we fall into comfortable patterns of eating dinner, watching television, going to bed.... it's too easy.
And not who i want to be doing it with.
