Filling in the Blanks

Why is it so hard to forgive those closest to you? It would seem to be a task not too difficult given how much you love the person. Still, i am bothered by the fact that i cannot.


After years of suspecting my wife harbors a crush on a friend of mine, i had come to realize that i was being foolish and put it away for the benefit of our relationship. This, in spite of weak protestations on her part and even weaker excuses as to why she would be drawn to him while we all spent time together.

Shortly after, she took an opportunity while i was 300 miles away to become drunk and call him under some false pretense.

Now i fear that what had previously been the pettiness of jealousy is now a living breathing reality.

Please write me and answer this: when you are drunk, who is the first person you think to call?

In my experience, it has been the woman with whom i was most enamored or loved.